coffee date three

so since i haven’t done one of these in a while, and since i forgot to do this month’s gratefulness entry in my bullet journal, i thought i’d write all the blessing God has given me here!!

first of all, the things i am grateful for today: i got ALL the harry potter books (yes including fantastic beasts and the cursed child) AND the two newest ones were on sale AND my mom has a barnes & noble membership so i got an extra ten percent off those ones. this is amazing because my brother had all the original ones but when he moved either he took them with or my mom donated them, so now i have them again. i also found the “poorly drawn lines” book, and since i’ve been following reza on tumblr for years of course i had to get it!! adding to the excitement: other than one sentence on my speech outline (have to get it approved by the prof), ALL my homework is done!! AND i have monday off school; i’m planning to use it to go to our local “coffee with a cop” session. God of course gives the greatest blessing of all daily (the fact that i’m not dead), but damn if this isn’t a great day.

next, things i’m grateful for this week – i went to our state DECA competition (note: i am not a business student) and i placed in an event!! this means i get to go to the ICDC in april, which just so happens to be in anaheim (read: disneyland) this year. also, i got a day off school for it – didn’t help with the homework situation, but it was nice. and while i was there i got to have dinner with my best friend that i only see a few times every year. in fact, when we first became friends at a summer camp we saw each other every day for a week, and then we didn’t see each other again for two years!! so i guess you can say i was pretty happy.

finally, things i’m grateful for this month – the love and support of my family and two of my closest friends has been everything to me, both as they help me reconnect with God and as i go through life after a horrible series of events last fall. also, the fact that this semester i’ve managed to decrease my anxiety and step outside of my comfort zone is terrifying, simply because it’s not what i’m used to, but amazing. just a few examples of this: i started volunteering at the humane society, i’m going to be president of a new student organization (i hate running meetings so this should be fun), and i actually competed in DECA instead of just going to the meetings. i’m also part of our school newspaper’s rebranding into a more lit mag-esque student publication, which is a process i’m so grateful to be part of.

every day can have amazing gifts from God, if only you choose to see them and thank Him xx

release through writing

so a lot has been going on in the last few years, and often i feel like i have no one to talk to about it. subsequently, there have been many times i’ve risen in the wee hours of the morning, mind cluttered with anxieties.

i have a tiny notebook i keep by my bed, along with a purple pen. this has been my poetry book for the last four years, and recently it’s been getting a lot fuller. i also keep poems on my google drive, most of which i’ve posted on tumblr. poetry is an excellent release for emotion because it can take any form to fit my thoughts.

one of my favorite poets.
one of my favorite poets. this poem, i believe, is her best, and this reading of it is spectacular.

and so, i encourage all of you: when you have a moment of intense emotion, positive, negative, or otherwise, vent it through poetry. cast aside all the rules and regulations of couplets, sonnets, iambic pentameter that you were taught in school – or use them, if that is your forte. and write, friends. write. the eyes are the windows to the soul, they say, but words are the keys to understanding oneself.

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– lexxie rae xx